I have nothing to say

I'm not really sure why I have a blog when I hardly have anything to say to anyone at the moment.

If I think of something to say, I'll get back to you.

thank you

Thank you comforting people. You're all very kind.

I am glad it's the weekend and that I have fun things to do and friends to spend time with.

Have a lovely weekend.

happy flowers

happy flowers, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

On the way home last night I bought big yellow smiley flowers to cheer myself up.

They do help a bit.

can I go home now?

It has been one of those days. Too much to do. Too many people demanding things to be done yesterday. Frustrations it seems no-one listens to, or at least frustration because I can't communicate the things I want to say to the people I need to say them to.

I've been in this job a year and I still don't feel like I can do it to anyone's satisfaction, least of all my own. I am uninspired.

I've been trying to think of exciting things to do for a holiday and deciding I am too scared to do any of them. I want to go somewhere exciting. But I hate travelling alone. I need people, a person to travel with. And a few more tons of confidence.

And I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Whenever that is.

Tell me nice things. Please. I'm hoping the main thing wrong with me is January and once it's gone away I'll feel better again. Hurry up Spring.

abstracts

shadows and refraction 1, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

I seem to have been taking lots of terrible pictures lately.

But I think these are OK. See if you can guess what it is before clicking through to flickr to find out.

snow snow!

Cambridge snowscape, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

It snowed in the night! I didn't notice until I got downstairs to the bathroom and thought, it looks very light out there, I wonder did it... And I opened the window and there it was, white stuff over everything. Magic!

It's my little sister's birthday today. Unfortunately she's down in the South West and didn't get snow. And she's got an exam today.
Happy Birthday HP! I hope it's good despite the exam. :-)

aches and pains

This weekend was fun. Lots of knitting, lots of reading and a celidh on Saturday (the cause of the aches and pains. It's fun whirling round as fast as you can, but you do feel it the next day). Now I'm back at work and realising I'm bored. I've lost my initial excitement for my job now I've been at it a year and I know what I'm doing. Most of the time. Time to think of ways to make my job more exciting.

huh?

Just had to share my favourite google search so far. Someone clicked through to my blog from the search "Ricky Martin Assyrian". What exactly where they looking for?

not today's weather

boat on the Cam, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

Cambridge is wet and cold and windy this week. Here's a reminder that it isn't always like that.

happy

Despite evidence to the contrary (like today's earlier post) and blips like this weekend (very flat, mainly due to tiredness and a modicum of disappointment), I am mostly happy at the moment. This feels like an achievement. I spent lots of 2006 being not happy, and lonely and a bit moany and grumpy (see the archives).

I put this down to lots of things. A warm and friendly place to live, lots of really good friends, a job that, while being hard and sometimes frustrating, I'm excited about, being settled in one place for a good length of time and, I'd say, most importantly, God. I learnt a lot last year about how much God loves me. Not because I'm better than anyone else, or more important, or more holy, but because he does. And that's a pretty mind-blowing, joyful-making thing to know. And one I want to hang onto and know more and more.

Monday mess

I've arrived at work and caused a mess of panic and disorganisation which I'm now trying to untangle. It's my own fault for leaving undone things which should have been done months ago. Oh dear.

Hello to all those people who de-lurked! Nice to know someone's out there reading.

zonk

It's been a long week, having worked all last weekend. I did have Tuesday off, but it wasn't much of a break. I think all the busy-ness finally caught up with me this afternoon, I'm suddenly exhausted.

Day off tomorrow and then it's the weekend.

Do something pretty while you can.

See you Monday. :-)

say hello

I notice it's Annual De-lurking week. Time for all those people who read and never comment to say hi.

So if that's you, leave a comment. If you want something to say, then tell me what was the most exciting thing to happen to you this week. Or just say hello.

little little me

There's a picture of me on Debs' blog. And Debs and her friend Esther. All looking very sweet and young circa 1985. Go and have a look.

look up

I've just seen the most beautiful sunset and, something even more exciting, a comet. Comet McNaught, visible today just after sunset, above the horizon, a little East of Venus. I've never seen a comet before. It was beautiful, a bright nucleus and a long tail streaming behind it.

You might catch it in the sky tomorrow, although it'll be lower in the sky tomorrow and the weather forecast isn't so good. According to the British Astronomical Association, comet McNaught will be at perihelion (closest to the sun) on 12 January, when it "could be brighter than Venus".

blue sky year

morning sky, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

2007 seems full of possibilities. I don't know what's going to happen this year, but I'm feeling excited about it.

what you lookin at?

what you lookin at?, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

On the weekend of my birthday, a bunch of us walked up Magog Down around sunset. I took pictures, of people, sheep and the sunset.

The sheep ones came out best.

Quail eggs

Quail eggs, originally uploaded by the pig wot flies.

Cooking for New Year's Eve.

They were tasty.

well, maybe my nose

It's sore. It's streaming. The cold is still here. Grrr. I'm going through tissues at a ridiculous rate and my nose is bright red.

On the other hand. It's not raining. And I have new bike lights and I'm not going out tonight and both my housemates are back.

things fall apart

Not me, I'm fine. Got a bit of a cold, but otherwise I'm enjoying the novelty of having the same job before and after Christmas. It hasn't happened for a while. No, it's my stuff that's falling apart. This weekend saw the demise of my front bike light (age estimated at 15-20 years, so it's not suprising, although they were only in active use for about 5 of those years), my CD player (age 10-12 years? Fortunately it's only the CD bit that's died, the radio still works) and a sewing machine needle (age unknown).

The bike lights and the needle have been replaced. I'm working on the CD player. Stops me buying any more CDs (maybe it objected to my most recent purchase - Alice by Tom Waits, although it was playing Jamie Cullum that killed it.) but it's silly to have CDs and nothing to play them on. Any recommendations? I like my current player because it has a radio, CD player and tape player, and because it has a remote control so I can turn it on and off without getting out of bed. Or does everyone have iPods and all their music on their laptop these days? Anyone?